where the light is :

하지 않아도 될 이야기를 구태여 밖으로 쏟아 부어야만 직성이 풀리는 내 옹졸함은, 포용할 수 있는 그릇의 크기가 작음에서 기인하는 것이다. 내 이야기든, 남의 이야기든 안에 담아내고 안에서 삭혀내고 꾸역꾸역 들이 마셔 내 안에서 배출될 수 있도록 해야 되는데, 여전히 나는 칠칠맞게 흘리고, 얼룩진 물자욱을 보면서 굳이 쏟지 않아도 됐을 텐데 후회하는 것이다.

This has got to die

I said, this has got to stop
This has got to lie down
With someone else on top

Well, you can keep me pinned
It's easier to tease
But you can't paint an elephant
Quite as good as she

And she may cry like a baby
And she may drive me Crazy
'Cause I am lately lonely

So why'd you have to lie?
I take it I'm your crutch
The pillow in your pillow case
Is easier to touch

And when you think you've sinned
Do you fall upon your knees?
Or d'you sit within your picture?
Do you still forget the breeze?

And she may rise, if I sing you down
And she may wisely cling to the ground
Cause I am lately, horny
So why would she take me thorny?

What's the point of this song? Or even singing?
You've already gone, why am I clinging?
Well I could throw it out, and I could live without
And I could do it all for you
I could be strong
Tell me if you want me to lie
'Cause this has got to die

I said, this has got to stop
This has got to lie down, down
With someone else on top

You can both keep me pinned
'Cause it's easier to tease
But you can't make me happy
Quite as good as me

Well you know that's a lie